Discouraged and Dissapointed

Ah, what a day. I can easily say I've had better..much better. Gypsy has been giving me some big difficulties as of late. But we have been working and there have been some decent days thrown in the mix too, but ah today..what a train wreck. My friend's mom is a trainer who works with me sometimes [Silver Meadow Morgans...they have some nice horses for sale, btw] came today to give me a little lesson to prep for the next show we are going to on the 25th. Oh and Gypsy was just so bad. And lately when I ride I've been having such a hard time keeping control of my temper. It's my greatest pitfall of my riding- I just can't seem to keep my emotions on the back burner while I am riding, and I get so danged frustrated. So today Gypsy was pulling a lot of crap with me and the trainer was trying to help me, but God I just broke totally down. It felt like I was doing nothing right, and Gypsy was totally ignoring me and doing whatever she wanted. A simple thing like keeping the correct bend and staying on the wall? It has been a long time since I've felt so low and discouraged about my riding and about training Gypsy. I am dissapointed and frustrated with myself, and feel hopeless about my mare. I feel like an idiot trying to bring her to another schooling show.
I haven't been to my friends house to ride her horses in a while either- I've been so busy. And on Monday I am moving back to Albany for the school year. But Gypsy isn't going to be coming until the 25th, so I'll have a week without her. So my friend is going to work and ride Gypsy for me while I'm gone so she isn't out of practice for the show. I hope she rides the crap out of her- she is like sending Gypsy to pony boot camp.
So yeah. A very not good day. I feel like heading over and riding the other horses just to pull me out of my funk. I need to have an enjoyable ride.