Total, utter madness

That is what my life feels like as of late. Like I could pull my hair out and scream to high heavens. I have so much on my plate it is insane. Let us count...I am taking 16 or so credits at school, I have a class that requires 6 hours a week riding and working Oscar, I have equestrian team practice once a week, I have Gypsy to take care of and such, BeauD to work now and then, and I have a horse show the next three weekends in a row. Oh dear lord. I want to die a little bit.
I've been having big old panic stress attacks, and so finally needed to do something about it. Gypsy is being sent back home to live in our pasture and eat grass. She is leaving school tomorrow- my parents are borrowing a friend's trailer and coming up. I will miss her, but it is such a huge relief off my mind. At least one thing will be going away, and I won't have to worry and feel guilty about not having time to work her at all. Besides, nothing could be better for her right now than to go just be a horse.
In other news....a huge drama-filled deal with equestrian team. I didn't help in fundraising last week, and it really set some people off apparently. Wasn't aware that could call for blowing up and acting like a three year old, but whatever, I am kind of over that. It's just rediculous. I have been half-tempted to quit the team, but I'll stick with it for now. It is a good opportunity to ride some different horses. Even if the money doesn't always seem quite worth it. But enough of that.
Havent been able to get out and work BeauD much at all, but this weekend is an open schooling show that I am taking Cheyenne to! I even went out and bought western show junk....a shirt, the chaps, the whole shebang. Ha, it felt a little out of place for me. But Cheyenne is going to do great I think, and even will have the blingy fancy show tack to wear- silver and lovely bridle, breastcollar, saddle....she will be pretty dang spiffy too. So yes, thats that. Taking her in 6 classes on Sunday, and I kind of gave up on making Cheyenne an english horse, since she is just too good at western to mess that up.
Are there any other horses in my life that need updating? I haven't had time to really go and ride the horses at work much at all, so poor Beary has been neglected by me, but as soon as these couple big things are past, I will make sure I get out there again.
And oh thank god it is Friday. And no school on Monday for the holiday, so here comes a three day weekend for me. And oh boy, I've never needed one more.