A new year, a new beginning

Oh where to start, where to start. I will begin with my very recent breakup. Without going too in depth.... We decided we are unable to make each other happy anymore, and we are better off, sadly, to just call it quits after all these years. Well, three or four years. Having a semi-tough time of it, but I am trying to tell myself it was for the best, and it will give me opportunities that were previously closed. Um... Sure. Yeah.. So I have moved back in with my parents for good, while he stays in our -the- duplex. Things are still akward and largely unsolved still.
Lets attempt to get away from that. Still working at the barn on Wednesdays. As of late Charlotte, the baby, has been getting so very naughty. She has been increasingly difficult to walk out to her pasture with her mama. Last week she even tried to twist away from me while I led her and grazed me with a hind kick. Naughty booger. I guess her owner has been sick of her games too. There is now a stud chain on Charlottes halter. Rather much for a baby sure, but she was getting dangerous to handle. Not even joking..she is a huge girl, about six months old now, totally fearless of people. I will say that today when I led her and her mama to the pasture, they were wonderfully good. Walked nicely, all feet on the ground. Massive massive improvement. She got a little teeny bit goofy, we stopped and stood for a minute. Then walked calmly on. Yay.

And now that I am single and not entirely responsible for a duplex and stuff....opportunities have arose. My mom suggested returning to college. Hmm. I could go and get my Vet Tech degree, then I wouldn't have to rely on the Ridgefield clinic to hire me. I would be much more qualified to work at any equine clinic, which is truly what I want to do. I am tired of working at the feed store, feeling like I wasted two years of my life at school. But the entrance to the vet tech program at PCC sounds next to impossible. Do I dare even try? I am attempting to turn a corner in my life as far as my attitude goes. I am so tired of relying on others to make me happy, I want to be a happy and joyful person all on my own, and be content with my life. Something I have had many issues with the past years. Perhaps even a major reason why my recent breakup happened. I want to fix that. I am trying to take my first few baby steps at that. Is going back to school my first big step? A step towards my dream job.....but that would mean quitting the job I have now, having no income and just relying on the hope that I would be able to find work after I get a new degree. Something I'm not good at. I just need to investigate all my options.